Wonderwall

Being alone isn't easy but we all hurt in the absence of another.  Maybe It's because as a society we find comfort in focus that doesn't lay on our faults but instead on someone else's.  Quite selfish love is.  But then again....selfishness has a vulnerability in its own way which I find to be a beautiful circle they call life.

My best friend had her beautiful baby boy today.....I am officially a god mother.  It is truly a miracle.  Its a somber moment though I know that one day nic and I would have had a baby.  It's so hard without him.  He was and will always be my one true love.  He would have given me the world but now I'm left alone and fighting for a way to make it all make sense.  my life has been some crazy places.  God has tested me and i will not stop trying.