so it has been almost a year since i started my blog. i dont post on here much anymore. i have a busy life. not sure if anyone even reads this shit anymore. its funny how long its been since my fingers have even touched a keyboard. weird how it all just comes back to me and they flow as if i am not even in control. control is something i dont posses that often these days. this time last year i was brought to my rock bottom...i lost everything and almost lost my life. all hope was forgotten i watched it fade as my body broke down and medicine pumped through my veins. i slowly began to pick up the broken pieces and start a journey towards living life again. my footsteps were placed across the snow covered grass...as it melted when spring came my way back home melted with it. the seasons changed and the year grew longer and longer. now here i am. it is winter again and i find myself just as in touch as i was when everything left. the crisp air is a reminder of the things i used to live. that winter was the coldest winter i think i had ever witnessed, i think i have my emotions to thank for that. you see, they say it is only when we have lost everything that we are free to do anything. so with the new season i once again take a step outside into the cold thrusting air and breathe. for it is my heart that brought me to where i am now. i open it freely and pray that the one i love will take it whole and hand it back to me one day. ive seen a lot of things this past year. i have lived a lot of things this year. i have hurt a lot of things this year. i forgot a lot of things this year. but the love that has found me is the one thing i have gained this year. i gladly walk this journey into the crisp dark winter and hope to come out on the other side having defeated the one thing that stands in the way of my heart...
