he cries at night when no one is around

He is hurt. He is damaged. I never did buy into all the hype. He pretends as if this is what he actually wanted out of life. I know the truth. He acts as if this is the only way to live....defensive and judgemental. He hides behind a brick wall. But see, I know who he really is. He has a heart its just a little confused.

last night

I had a dream. Someone from my past was in it. They will stay in the past. Forever.

the people you hate the most always end up being right

I was told once to guard my heart. To not let anyone in. Be a bitch he said. Play games and fuck with people's heads. I should have listened because here I sit alone and afraid. There was a time that I thought I would never be happy again. I thought my world had collapsed and I would never really love again. Food tasted horrible, music sounded dull, and colors were only in black and white. I finally got past that and found a great life. I had an amazing time....friends, parties, and a promising relationship. I lost it all in the same moment. Now I don't have shit but a broken heart. So thanks, asshole, if only I would have taken your advice.

here i sit in silence

I had many ideas, many thoughts, many words. So many things I miss that I wanted to talk about. I was with a new guy tonight. I thought it would help but instead it made me sad. So we will keep at silence because I need to forget. Goodnight world.